âYeah,â Caine said. âThat was a mistake. Coming down on the freaks, that was a mistake. We need them.â
âPlus, in addition to some possible new moofs, Samâs people still have machine guns. And they still have Sam,â Diana said. âSo how about if we donât do something stupid like try and fight them againâ
âMoofsâ
âShort for mutant. Mutant freaks. Moofs.â Diana shrugged. âMoofs, muties, freaks. Weâre out of food, but weâve got plenty of nicknames.â
Caineâs shirt was laid over the back of a chair. He reached for it, wobbled, and seemed about to fall over. Diana steadied him. He glared at her hand on his arm. âI can walk.â
He glanced up and caught sight of his reflection in a mirror over the dresser. He almost didnât recognize himself. Diana was right: He was pale, his cheeks were concave. His eyes seemed too large for his face.
âI guess you are getting better: youâre becoming a prickly jerk again.â
âGet Bug in here. Get Bug and Drake. I want to see them both.â
Diana made no move. âAre you going to tell me what happened to you out there in the desert with Pack Leaderâ
Caine snorted. âYou donât want to know.â
âYes,â Diana insisted, âI do.â
âAll that matters is Iâm back,â Caine said with all the bravado he could manage.
Diana nodded. The movement caused her hair to fall forward, to caress her perfect cheek. Her eyes glittered moistly. But her lush lips still curled into an expression of distaste.
âWhatâs it mean, Caine What does âgaiaphageâ meanâ
He shrugged. âI donât know. Iâve never heard the word before.â
Why was he lying to her Why did it seem so dangerous that she should know that word
âGo get them,â Caine said, dismissing her. âGet Drake and Bug.â
âWhy donât you take it easy Make sure youâre really . . . I was going to say âsane,â but that might be setting the bar kind of high.â
âIâm back,â Caine reiterated. âAnd I have a plan.â
She stared at him, head tilted sideways, skeptical. âA plan.â
âI have things I have to do,â Caine said, and looked down, incapable, for reasons he couldnât quite grasp, of meeting her gaze.
âCaine, donât do this,â Diana said. âSam let you walk away alive. He wonât do that a second time.â
âYou want me to bargain with him Work something outâ
âYes.â
âWell then, thatâs just what Iâm going to do, Diana. Iâm going to bargain. But first I need something to bargain with. And I know just the thing.â
Astrid Ellison was in the overgrown backyard with Little Pete when Sam brought her the news and the worm. Pete was swinging. Or more accurately he was sitting on the swing as Astrid pushed him. He seemed to like it.
It was dull, monotonous work pushing the swing with almost never a word of conversation or a sound of joy from her little brother. Pete was five years old, just barely, and severely autistic. He could talk, but mostly he didnât. He had become, if anything, even more withdrawn since the coming of the FAYZ. Maybe it was her fault: she wasnât keeping up with the therapy, wasnât keeping up with all the futile, pointless exercises that were supposed to help autistics deal with reality.
Of course Little Pete made his own reality. In some very important ways he had made everyoneâs reality.
The yard was not Astridâs yard, the house not her house. Drake Merwin had burned her house down. But one thing there was no shortage of in Perdido Beach was housing. Most homes were empty. And although many kids stayed in their own homes, some found their old bedrooms, their old family rooms, too full of memories. Astrid had lost track of how many times sheâd seen kids break down sobbing, talking about their mom in the kitchen, their dad mowing the lawn, their older brother or sister hogging the remote.
Kids got lonely a lot. Loneliness, fear, and sadness haunted the FAYZ. So, often kids moved in together, into what amounted almost to frat or sorority houses.
This house was shared by Astrid; Mary Terrafino; Maryâs little brother, John; and more and more often, Sam. Officially Sam lived in an unused office at town hall, where he slept on a couch, cooked with a microwave, and used what had been a public restroom. But it was a gloomy place, and Astrid had asked him more than once to consider this his home. They were, after all, a family of sorts. And, symbolically at least, they were the first family of the FAYZ, substitute mother and father to the motherless, fatherless kids.
Astrid heard Sam before she saw him. Perdido Beach had always been a sleepy little town, and now it was as quiet as church most of the time. Sam came through the house, letting himself in, calling her name as he went from room to room.
âSam,â she yelled. But he didnât hear her until he opened the back door and stepped out onto the deck.
One glance was all it took to know something terrible had happened. Sam wasnât good at concealing his feelings, at least not from her.
âWhat is itâ she asked.
He didnât answer, just strode across the weedy, patchy grass and put his arms around her. She hugged him back, patient, knowing heâd tell her when he could.
He buried his face in her hair. She could feel his breath on her neck, tickling her ear. She enjoyed the feel of his body against hers. Enjoyed the fact that he needed to hold her. But there was nothing romantic about this embrace.