âThereâs no real couch. Just an antique settee made for ladies half your size.â
âIâve slept on rocks in the snow. A cramped settee is a luxury. Iâll be fine.â
âPaige isnât going to hurt me.â
âNo, sheâs wonât. Youâll be too far away to tempt her while youâre asleep and vulnerable.â
Iâm too tired to argue. I peek into her room to make sure sheâs still asleep before walking into my own room across the hall.
The morning sun shines its warmth through the window of my room and onto the bed. There are dried wildflowers on the bedside table, adding a splash of purples and yellows. The scent of rosemary wafts in through the open window.
I take off my shoes and lean Pooky Bear against the bed within easy reach. The teddy bear sits on top of the gauzy dress that covers the swordâs scabbard. Iâve felt a tinge of emotion coming off it ever since weâve been back with Raffe. Itâs both happy to be near him and sad to be forbidden to him. I stroke the soft fur of the bear and give it a little pat.
Normally, I sleep in my clothes in case I need to run. But Iâm sick of sleeping that way. Itâs uncomfortable, and the welcoming room reminds me of what it was like before we were scared all the time.
I decide this will be one of those rare times when I can sleep comfortably. I pad over to the chest of drawers and rummage through the clothes I found earlier.
Thereâs not much of a choice, but I make the best of whatâs there. I choose the cropped T-shirt and the menâs boxers. The T-shirt is loose but fits okay. It comes down to the bottom of my ribs, leaving my midriff bare.
The stretchy boxers cling to me perfectly even though theyâre for guys. One leg is frayed and unraveling, but theyâre clean, and the elastic isnât too tight.
I crawl into bed, marveling at the silky luxury of sheets. The second my head lands on the pillow, I begin fading away.
The soft breeze flows in from the windows. Part of me knows that itâs sunny outside and warm in the way that October can be sometimes.
But another part of me sees thunderstorms. The sun melts into this rain, and my room with the garden view turns into storm clouds as I drift deeper into sleep.
Iâm back where the Fallen are being dragged away to the Pit in chains. The spikes in their necks and foreheads, wrists and ankles drip blood as the hellions ride them.
Itâs the same dream I had through my sword when I was at the Resistance camp. But a part of me remembers that Iâm not sleeping with the blade this time. Itâs leaning against the bed but not touching me. This doesnât feel like a sword memory.
Iâm dreaming about my own experience of being in the swordâs memory. A dream about a dream.
In the thunderstorm, Raffe glides down, brushing hands with a few of the newly Fallen as he heads toward the earth below. I see their faces as Raffe touches hands with them. This group of Fallen must be the Watchers â the elite group of angel warriors who fell for loving Daughters of Men.
They were under Raffeâs command, his loyal soldiers. They clearly look to him to help save them despite their choice to break angelic law by marrying Daughters of Men.
One face catches my eye. His bound form is familiar.
I strain to see him better, and eventually, I do.
Itâs Beliel.
He looks fresher than Iâm used to, and his usual sneer is gone. There is anger in his face, but behind that, thereâs genuine pain in his eyes. He grips Raffeâs hand for a moment longer than the other Fallen did, almost shaking it.
Raffe nods to him and continues toward the earth.
Lightning flashes, and the sky rumbles as rain drips down Belielâs face.
When I wake up, the sun has moved across the sky.
I donât hear anything unusual, so hopefully, Paige is still asleep. I get up and walk toward the open window. Outside, itâs still sunny, with the breeze blowing through the trees. The birds sing and the bees buzz as though the world hasnât completely changed.
Despite the warmth, though, when I look outside, I get chills.
Beliel still lies chained to the garden gate, shriveled and tortured. But his eyes are open, and he stares right at me. I guess he could be completely thawed from his paralysis by now. No wonder I had a nightmare about him.
But it wasnât really a nightmare, was it It was more like a memory of what the sword showed me. I shake my head slowly, trying to make sense of it all.
Is it possible that Beliel could have been one of Raffeâs Watchers
4
The room is warming from the sun. I guess itâs probably around noon. It feels glorious to have a break from all the craziness.
Iâm not prepared to give up on my precious sleep yet, but a glass of water sounds good. When I open my door, Raffe is sitting in the hallway with his eyes closed.
I frown. âWhat are you doingâ
âI was too tired to walk to the settee,â he says without opening his eyes.
âYouâre keeping watch I would have taken my turn if youâd told me. Who are we worried aboutâ
Raffe snorts.
âI mean, any specific enemy at the momentâ
Heâs sitting facing Paigeâs door. I guess I should have known.
âShe wonât hurt me.â
âThatâs what Beliel thought.â His eyes are still closed, and his lips barely move. If he wasnât talking, I would have thought he was asleep.
âBeliel is not her big sister, and he didnât raise her either.â